Possibly a bit of an unload. Lately, I've been feeling this way. Since my previous dojo closed, I've checked a few different school over a period of coming up to eight months, before finding another Bujinkan school this week. I feel like, even though I might have only checked out some styles shortly, or not particularly liked some of them, I still feel like I've taken on board things from them, even if only one or two things maybe (footwork, a few technique drills, conditioning etc) and yet for some reason I feel somewhat lost with training in regards to purpose. When my 16 year old self started training I was in an exceptionally rough time of my life (both in terms of exposure to violence and an unstable period in education, home and health). I got into training because I so desperately needed an outlet to handle my stress levels and partly to protect myself, but it became a hobby I had a strong love for. I wanted to become as competent a martial artist as I possibly could. seven years later and the dojo I spent that time in, and part of me wonders why the other classes didnt stick. I mean yeah, some of them were at times I couldnt make regularly since begnning an Masters Degree, others were just downright obnoxious teachers feeding the 'ultimate fighting style' and wanting me to throw money at them in subscriptions after first class, or didnt really teach or correct students. It might also be related to clinical depression, a problem I've had in the last two years quite significantly. Out of all the clubs I've checked, one local Karate school has managed to keep me interested in learning Goju Ryu (they also teach kickboxing and BJJ, which I sometimes dabble in, but Im not interested in competing). I sort of feel like the reason behind training feels lost to me. Anyone had a similar experience? How did you handle it?