Haha, true. I have tried to talk with my old man about these "urges", but I don't think he understands. The dangerous (and embarrasing) thing about this is that i always get these urges when I've had a couple of beers. Going into deep ichimonji when chopping wood, without thinking about it happens all the time, people must think I'm mentally ill, or just retarded :Angel: And one really positive aspect is: You never get the urge to get physical, no matter how angry you get, and you never get that mad to begin with. You also don't fear pain or losing a brawl if it would come to that, even if you know your limits. That's a special kind of self-confidence.