I'm into my fourth year of Chen Taijiqian and I'm struggling to maintain the motivation to keep going. It may be boredom, but I usually have quite a high boredom threshold when it comes training. I have fenced for 18 years and I'm loving my boxing which I,ve also been doing for 4+ years too, and even with the bloody noses and the paracetamols I have to take after sparring I still like turning up for basic padwork drills which sometimes I find boring. But with Taijiquan a certain kind of listnessnes has crept in. I should have been there half an hour ago, but I can't bring myself to do it. Initially my goals were just to learn a basic form and some of the applications behind it and some push hands. I've achieved that - not to perfection! I wouldn't be arrogant to claim I've nothing more to learn, but I feel I have achieved my modest initial goals. My Sifu now thinks I should move to a next form, but I can't seem to muster the motivation to go on. It's a small group, and I really like my instructor, I have no problem with his instruction, with the exception that I may have liked some more push hands practice, but as the only Chen Taijiquan student in a primary qigong class I'm aware that I can't ask him to spend too long in a time consuming practice such as push-hands to the detriment of spending time with other students, so I don't bring up the issue. He does from time to time however show me and demonstrate Chin-na (joint locking) applications in the form which I'm grateful for. However recently I've been struggling to justify my continued attendence. Starting a new form hasn't seemed to motivated me and to be fair I am getting a lot more enjoyment through Training for an upcoming 8 mile fun-run than I am getting from taijiquan. And I hate running... Problem is: 1) I don't want give up away 4 years of taijiquan.It feels such a waste. 2) Feel guilty about potentially leaving my instructor. I even feel guilty about writing this on a forum. Anyone else been in a similar situation? Thoughts ideas? How did anyone else find the motivation to keep going. Conversely did anyone recognise they had taken what they could and moved on. - a conflicted Botta Dritta.